Mother’s Day is bittersweet for me.
On the one hand, I get to hang out with the three men that I love most in my life.
On the other hand I don’t get to hang out with my mom because she passed away several years ago. I miss her terribly and I miss the fact that she can’t see my sons grow up. I have a feeling she’s kind of pissed about that, too.
There is a place where her ashes are buried but I don’t go there anymore. I used to bring fresh cut roses there and feel sad and cry.
Now I go to her house and tend her roses because it makes me feel happy and close to her. Then I cut some roses and bring them back to my house.
It’s like bringing a little piece of her home with me and my family.
Happy Mother’s Day.
I have the same bittersweet feelings about Mother's Day, since my mother died in 1998, and I've lost two stepmothers since then too. I think your idea of tending the roses at your mom's is a lovely one.
Posted by: Kalyn | May 10, 2009 at 06:41 AM
What a sad story my friend, thanks for sharing. I admire you for that. i like your idea of tending the roses at your mom. you really love your mom, you did a great job in choosing those flowers. looks very refreshing. hope you'll ok, now..keep it up!
-khatie-
Posted by: Flowers in the Philippines | May 10, 2009 at 06:32 PM
Those roses are gorgeous, Chigiy, and I love your tradition of going to care for the roses and then bringing some home. I know it's not the same as having your Mom around, but it's a lovely way to remember her. Hugs to you, my friend.
Posted by: Genie | May 11, 2009 at 11:07 AM